I can’t believe how fast the time has gone. The last time I posted here, I was pregnant and fearing the near future. I was so worried about the c-section, worried about Luke and making sure he would be healthy, worried about the changes that were getting ready to happen to my life. Amazing how things have changed. I still worry, of course. I think that’s just my personality. But things are just the way they are supposed to be. Sure there were lots of changes and still are- but I’m so thankful for them. Luke has turned our worlds upside down and there hasn’t been anything more or less that I’d ask for.
The beginning was rough. Jason had to work the entire time I was home with Luke. Literally, he went to work the day after I came home. It was horrible. Looking back, I had some postpartum depression going on. I cried everytime he left me. I cried everytime anyone would leave me. It was just Luke and me. Luke didn’t know what the heck was going on, and neither did I. It was just the two of us at 3am…trying to figure out why were both crying. LoL. I can laugh now- because I survived it. Jason helped as much as he could between all of his work hours.
I got to stay home from work until February which was WONDERFUL. Work. Ya know, I was soooo worried about my coworkers having too much of my work and being overloaded with it. That priority went out the window as soon as I saw Luke. Priority of work was gone. I was able to stay home and just love him and learn him. I have the very best boss I think I could ask for in Kara. She’s a mom herself and so understanding. I couldn’t ask for anything better. She helped me realize that it was okay to let go of projects and work. She also let me know that there has to be balance between work and family.
Now that I’m back at work, Luke goes to Julie’s. Yet another blessing. Julie has been so incredibly helpful. Between her and my dad, i don’t know what I’d do without them. My dad meets me downtown on Monday mornings and evenings. He gets Luke and takes him out to Julie. Then on Tuesdays, Julie meets me downtown in the morning and evening. Wednesday, Julie meets me in the morning- dad meets me in the evening. I can’t believe it’s actually working, but it is. Julie is able to watch Luke and he’s able to be in her home and play/learn/interact with her boys. I’m so lucky. Even more lucky to know that Jason is home with him all day on Thursdays and Fridays. Those are “Daddy and Luke” days.
So here I am, sitting downstairs, typing while Luke sleeps and Jason works. Thinking about all of the milestones that have come and gone since the last blog. The fact that I’m actually a mom- that Jason and I are “doing this” as we say. Development wise, Luke is doing great. He’s rolling all over, practicing sitting up, smiling all of the time, teething, and blowing raspberries like it’s his job. His favorite toy is his jumperoo with his playmat coming in a close 2nd.
So this is where I’ll end this one- there are a lot of other things I’m going to talk about, but for now, I’ll leave it with this update and some pics. I’ll be updating this more often. I need to blog more so I’ll remember these things!!